I've created & kept this blog to compile the thoughts, dreams and wisdom that I've discovered from others or merely written myself. This blog is, in a sense, an expression of everything that is me.. Whether I wrote it or not. The most recent entries are a series of quotes, lyrics and videos.. But travel back through the archives and you'll delve deep into my heart, through my own words.

To those who I've quoted or borrowed from: Thank you for being beautiful.. for deeply inspiring me in one way or another. I hope you find that I've used your material in an appropriate fashion.. I try always to cite my sources. I take NO credit for that which is not my own.

Wednesday, October 17, 2007


"There comes a moment when it's more than just a game, and you either take that step forward or turn around and walk away."
(grey's anatomy)

Do you ever hear a lyric, a quote, a story... and instantly feel inspired? It's as if the person speaking is making a direct connection with you.. I'm easily inspired. All the time. I'll hear something, and wheels begin turning almost instantly in my head. I'm a thought person, you know what I mean? Thoughts.. They'll always get the best of me.

We play games to make light of things, and quite often, to help us heal. To make time fly by quicker and hopefully, much less painfully. Sometimes, the games work. More often than not, though, they just create a temporary blockage, which time has absolutely no trouble in eroding... and once that guard is worn down, the games become too much to bear. This is where today's quote becomes applicable. It's called Fight-or-Flight Syndrome. Persevere, or run away. (Walking quickly is still considered to be running. Call it what you will, but really, there is no other way to classify it). When it all comes down to the hard, naked and gritty reality, there are only those two choices.

I'm unpredictable. However, I tend to contradict myself more and more these days... So in all reality, I should probably say that I'm extremely predictable... Only in the sense that you can always count on me to be unpredictable. To do what is least expected of me... Whether that be a good or bad thing. Honestly, I don't really care how it comes across. My friends know and expect it from me. It's the only way I really know how to be anymore. I'm very defensive, and I try not to let my guard down too easily. Trust issues, surpressed memories, dark history... That's me. So I'm unpredictable. I like it that way.


I had to end this with something that made me laugh hysterically... People who come into the salon where I work are absolutely hilarious, and I always end up repeating things that they say, just for kicks. So here's to this woman... She's as straightforward as they come, and I respect and applaud her for it.

"Men take everything we say without a grain of salt. It's their job to make things difficult. That's why sometimes I wish I had balls."
(Salon Client)

No comments: