I've created & kept this blog to compile the thoughts, dreams and wisdom that I've discovered from others or merely written myself. This blog is, in a sense, an expression of everything that is me.. Whether I wrote it or not. The most recent entries are a series of quotes, lyrics and videos.. But travel back through the archives and you'll delve deep into my heart, through my own words.

To those who I've quoted or borrowed from: Thank you for being beautiful.. for deeply inspiring me in one way or another. I hope you find that I've used your material in an appropriate fashion.. I try always to cite my sources. I take NO credit for that which is not my own.

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

Falling... Up?

Everything is falling into place,
and it couldn't come at a better time.

Right when I thought I was more lost than ever..
after all the crazy stress I've put myself through the past few weeks..

I took a couple of steps back.
Then I doubled that same amount of steps, and used it to move forward.

I found myself.

I had company over for two nights this weekend..
Those two days actually opened my eyes to alot of things that I had been overlooking.
I can't say why, nor can I explain how... That's between myself and those involved.
But I felt alive again, I believed again, and I wanted more from life again.

I don't know where I'll be in the next few weeks,
but I know that I need to get there.
And... I will.
Just you wait and see.

I'm sub-leasing my apartment.
I'm moving out of state. (perm or temp)
I'm taking time to TRAVEL!
I'm taking classes seriously.
I'm applying for internships.
I'm doing things for ME, no worries what others think.
I'm going to see places I've only dreamed about.

I'm done wishing for the world, because I'm going out there to actually get it.


On a more solemn note... My dog, Thunder, had another stroke. Keep him in your thoughts.. It's breaking our hearts to see him this way. He's such a great animal, and I love him more than anything.


I just bought a train ticket from OAK to SAC.
My flight leaves about 24 hours from now.. I'm stoked.
Beach with some of my bests tomorrow..
Chiro, hair, nails, eyebrows, laundry, packing, bank, ETC.
I work at 7:30... Costume night. One more chance for $400 before I leave.
::Cross your fingers for me!!::

I have over $4,000 pending in financial aid...
Even better for a birthday present!

I should be arriving at the SAC train station @ approximately 4pm on Thursday.
I have money in my bank.
I have good friends I haven't seen in awhile.
I have some great shows to attend.
I have a weekend full of adventures to look forward to, and a much deserved (and needed!) vacation to get started in on.

California... Here I come.

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