Dear You.. Goodbye.

Dear (dare I refer to you as such?) You:

Stranger. Criminal. Fraud. Liar. Thief.

You've plagued my thoughts, my mind, my memories and my heart for far too long now. You've stolen the spotlight in every movie that I watch, and wrapped yourself around the lyrics that constantly surround me. You've skipped from my dreams into reality, and then fallen back to an illusion a million times over. I've struggled to move past the mark you left on my life, yet, every time, that resulted in failure.

I tried to forget you. I really did. I was making such progress each time, too. You haven't really been making it too easy.. But I don't just blame you. There's something about being weak-minded that puts a tremendous HALT on progress.. Or so I've learned.

I wish you'd stay gone and crawl back into the shadows. I wish you weren't a permanent fixture in my delusional mind. I wish that someone could remove every bit of you from my brain. I wish that the night sky would look down and have sympathy on my situation. Maybe then I could get around to this whole "rest of my life" adventure.

You, I'm sorry that it's taken me so long to realize how foolish I've appeared. I want you to know that I've finally swallowed a big ol' dose of reality and I'm finally seeing you for what you really are. I can finally grasp the obvious. I'm not sorry for things I have said or for words that I have written, because I make no apologies for my emotions. However, I do apologize for wasting so much of my time and life on anything to do with you.

I hope this letter finds you well. I really do. I'm so glad to get this off of my chest and to finally be rid of these distorted thoughts and dreams. I know what's real now. I know how much better off I really am.

Goodbye You.